It’s been a few weeks since I first started The Asperger’s Effect series of articles, detailing how I live with Asperger’s Syndrome. Whilst I wanted to document how I live with Asperger’s in this next post through my iPhone, I have decided to save that for the fifth and final piece in this series.
The second article is about a group that I hold very dear to my heart and that’s London Alternative rockers Suede. There was one song that I discovered last year that turned me from listening to only Beautiful Ones and Animal Nitrate, that song was The Chemistry Between Us from Suede’s 1996 album Coming Up.
Where do I start? It all started in September 2016 when I happened to be in the gym on the rowing machine. The past few days were very tough and draining but I happened to discover The Chemistry Between Us by pure accident which the music and lyrics happened to make sense with everything I was going through. I felt a sense of optimism in which I was able to express myself accurately with the song as I was rowing away any negativity I had.
Initially, I wanted to isolate myself as I felt so ashamed and embarrassed from the past few days. However, that was never going to work because that feeling of isolation was going to translate into poorer quality work. By listening to The Chemistry Between Us, it gave me hope that everything was going to be fine and that chemistry between my friendships remained intact.
After those few days past, I was back to my normal, positive self and my friendships remained relatively unchanged. However, I learned so much about being through these situations and how important it is to have a healthy friendship. Life can be difficult, but when you are struggling in life with Asperger’s, it’s important to remember that you have to move on from those situations and become a more positive version of yourself.
I cannot thank Suede enough for producing a very underrated track that means so much to my life and has also changed my perspective of music. When something so profound touches your heart, it makes you think how privileged I am to be writing about something that has meant so much to me and has helped me to never let my Asperger’s define who I am as an individual.
Brett Anderson, Richard Oakes, Neil Codling, Mat Osman and Simon Gilbert, thank you so much for producing a seven-minute masterpiece of a song. If you have not yet listened to The Chemistry Between Us, have a listen below to this live version from 2011 which sounds phenomenal.
Picture Credited to Tenement TV.